I am a little afraid of spring. Feeling very Demeter here. Fear of returning, fear of change. Prospect of newness and being confronted by what didn’t get done over the winter. My own daughter will return from 3 months in Italy next month. I can literally feel Demeter’s anticipation, waiting for her girl Persephone to come home. I’m wondering what will be different. Will my daughter be the same? Am I? Again, I feel the anxiety of change.
Today, the sky is bright, but it snows. Wet, brief, heavy. Cold but not. The weather is so deceiving. What seems like a warm day turns out to be sunny but freezing. One day, flip flops. Next day, snow boots. Here in Wisconsin, it switches between snowy to muddy, but the wind seems to constantly blow. Spring as a season of change is intense. After a beautiful, quiet winter, the confrontation that is spring, is fearsome. I dip my toe into venturing out. Walk the dog a little. Kick the snow off the place where my daffodils will bloom.
Inside my house, I decided to work with my anxiety by contemplating a new altar. A little spring cleaning for the spring equinox. I decided three cards will be central, providing direction as well as giving me some study prompts. I used the Goddess Guidance Oracle, The Druid Animal Oracle and the box of images and words I snip from magazines. Saraswati arrives from the Goddess deck, a mermaid from the box and the Bee is delivered by the Druids.
Earlier, in my yard, I gathered some dried Iris leaves to braid as basket material. So pretty and strong, Instead, I added beads to the bottom of the braid. This activity made me ponder the lovely things soon coming to my yard. With this in mind, I added a glass lotus tea light to bring a floral presence to my altar. An old friend sent me the cloth and amethyst recently. The cloth seems like dark clouds pulling away to light sky. The amethyst, given it’s relationship to the crown chakra, supports my need for wisdom and the ability to transcend ones current situation.
In contemplating the cards, I peer at the images and find something interesting. On the Saraswati card, she is on land, dipping toward the water. The mermaid is in the water, reaching for the sun. The bee travels the sky toward the sun, then, pauses on Earth. Somehow, I felt a good representation of all the elements and a nice circular energy pattern.
I considered the polarity of the Mermaid. She, as a denizen of water, can be life-giving and nurturing, but also, she can bring a powerful force. Quite a fitting reflection of the nature of spring. Sarasvati and the Bee both encourage us to celebrate. While Sarasvati bids us to explore and express our creative selves, the Bee reminds us to come together in harmony and rejoice. After a long winter, I realize how isolated I am. Time to get out and see the world again!
The process of spring cleaning can be kick-started with a fresh altar. By clearing away the old, I was able to provide myself exactly the insight I needed to balance my anxiety. As an additional perk, my spring altar is the first thing I see in the morning. A perfect way to set the tone for the day and the season.