I had a major epiphany this week. Do you ever have those moments when information arrives and you feel like someone nailed your feet to the floor and your skin tingles? I was just so nailed and tingly last evening. Before we go there, however, let’s back track a bit. I decided earlier this year to step into prayer around abundance after listening to a story from Gregg Braden as he described observing a friend “praying rain.” He said it wasn’t praying for rain as that implies the rain is absent. Praying rain meant that one was experiencing the rain already and so the emotion and experience calls it into being. I took this concept and used it to pray abundance, which looks like me being grateful in the present for my abundance, past, present and future. There was a minor time lag between the start of my praying to abundance showing up and during that time I consciously stepped into trust. Every time I had the fear of scarcity, I reminded myself to step into prayer. Things started to shift, creating momentum into more gratitude.
As a result, I decided a couple of weeks ago to do the same thing with my relationship to the Divine, to “pray” continual spiritual opening and deeper trust. My life’s path has been one of moving slowly into trust, one step at a time, starting from a place of deep skepticism and fear. That path has been circuitous and eclectic. Following my inner desire this week I decided to watch something meaningful and searched Gaia TV to find a program. I landed upon an interview of Tiffany Barsotti (a healer) by Regina Meredith. From the start of this interview, I was captured. Tiffany shared her story – how she came to be a healer. She then described her work with the reticular activating system. She said this is where our awareness and focus is centered. This alerted my attention because it confirmed my sense that practicing awareness is the root of spiritual opening. In this discussion she mentioned the alta major chakra and my skin tingled. She said the alta major is a chakra at the back of the neck by the brain stem and branches out into the brain. She said it is known as the seat of consciousness. I immediately thought I need to know more about this, because I know it has to do with the way I understand consciousness as a tree. Not wanting to miss anything important, I listened to the rest of the program, which was all very interesting, but I knew the alta major chakra info was the key to something for me and so I did more research. What I found knocked my socks off. Here are some of the correspondences I found:
The alta major was known as the Mouth of the Goddess in asian tantric systems, allowing shakti to ignite and flow down the spine (I suspect it is the mouth of the Goddess Silence/Sige specifically).
The alta major is also known as the portal or galactic doorway to higher forces (or I prefer seeing it as “deeper forces”)
The alta major has roots reaching down the spine into the root chakra where is disperses throughout the body and branches up to the crown chakra
The alta major is also connected to the third eye and crown
As I was reading the various accounts, I felt they were describing my intuitive pathway. I realized I’ve been using my alta major all this time and I didn’t even know it was a thing. Having been exposed to the more popular seven chakras, I didn’t even know this one existed intellectually, even though I was actively using it. I have also been following a parallel track of interest in the vagus nerve and its relationship to awareness, trauma and ability to bring calm. A couple of years back, I discovered my long term meditation practice employs the vagus, which is the center of the parasympathetic (calming) nervous system. I trust my experience, but it always energizes me when my experience intersects with science. This was another piece falling into place. As it turns out, Tiffany’s Barsotti’s thesis is aptly named A Proposed Spiritual Axis of the Bodymind: How the Reticular Activating System (RAS), Vagus Nerve and the Alta Major Chakra may be the Nexus of Bodymind/Spirit Consciousness.
Now if that wasn’t already exhilarating enough, I kept searching and found this amazing quote from Niamh Clune (author of The Coming of the Feminine Christ): “The inner tree is the alta major, whose roots burrow deep into the root chakra, with branches reaching up to the crown.” She names the alta major The Inner Tree! This is the exact name I have been calling my book, my programs and my conception of who we are as conscious beings. While I was mentally unaware of the alta chakra, I have intuitively understood it all along. Now I was shaking. Reading further, another author Inaiya Ray (The Grail Rider: Memoirs From The Heart of The Wild Divine), connects this “inner tree” to Sophia and to the wisdom that comes from awareness, also echoing my own writing and speaking about awareness as the key to everything. Here it was, reflected back to me in words and experiences so similar to my own.
Along my journey, one of the things which inhibited my trust in my intuition was the fact that I never connected with the way it is portrayed in western culture – a function of ‘higher” information coming in through the crown chakra and centered in the third eye. I couldn’t grasp what they were talking about on an experiential level. I don’t imagine I am the only one that has run across this difficulty. Of course, it’s not as if the third eye is left out of this alta major connection, indeed it is linked. But popular culture left out the alta major chakra and its corresponding connection to the root chakra, which is where I perceived I was “receiving.” Furthermore, the root chakra has often been given and odious reputation, corresponding with the similar reputation of the body in western spirituality.
Aaah, but now, validation! I knew what I knew based on my inner experience, but had so many painful questioning years where I had to learn to just trust myself despite the lack of validation. And now, the answer to my prayer for continued spiritual opening arrived. Tears kissed my cheeks as gratitude swooped in on blessed wings.
And yet, even another piece fell into place this morning. I went to see my bodyworker/coach and was explaining to her my epiphany as she was working on my back. We were talking about the spine as the channel between the alta major and the root chakra and I said something about my practice of using a mini ma back roller (see pic above) consistently through my adult life to loosen the fascia and tight muscles along the length of my spine. I told my coach, I don’t know why, but I know this thing has kept me healthy. It was then that it dawned on me that this routine, which I hadn’t really connected to my spiritual growth, played an important role in opening my intuitive channel and keeping it open. Here I was following my bliss, my interests and passions and they were the basis for my spiritual and intuitive opening, even when I didn’t know they were.
I love how the mystery unfolds. My prayer was answered and I received. My trust in life and myself has strengthened, my connection more apparent.
In what way has following your bliss, your passion and interests opened you? You are unique and your path is your own. Do you trust it, even when it seems counter to the prevailing view? I share my story to empower you to trust your own.
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