The Crone is a shapeshifter, the young embraced by the old, the woman with the animal inside or beside her. She can be laughing one moment and then screaming with rage the next. She is the Goddess expression of the dark and the forbidden, cruising right to the things that make us uncomfortable, that we don’t want to look at, that frighten us.
I’m not sure we are so great at Crone Goddesses: She can be so challenging and difficult and we are scared of that. There is a lot of love for the abundant mothers and nurturing, playful daughters: the lucious lovers, the nourishing creatrixes, but the hags who refuse to be nice or gentle?
The Goddess who is so frank and blunt it hurts?
The Goddess who is not afraid to send you along the painful path?
The uncontrollable beansidhe who prophecises death and destruction?
The Goddess who is deeply wise but suffers no fools and be as cruel as she is kind?
Not so much.
She screams our fears into the night, and forces us to confront ourselves
The problem is, the Crone is flippin’ scary, and it’s much easier to just ignore her and hope she doesn’t pick on us.
Samhain is a scary time – it is Crone energy time. It’s about fears, the long dark night of the soul, being broken and terrified and having to push through it. It’s not so much that the Crone Goddess is guaranteed to mess you up this Halloween season, but she could do so, and we have to respect that.
She doesn’t dole out pain and fear-facing for the hell of it. As people we collect fears and habits and ideas that are not good for us and that do not serve our truth. Our truth (or our inner goddess, goddess self, soul, blue god, whatever you call it) is the part of us that is the most concentrated expression of who we are/the divine in us, and we tend to clog it up with junk. We can’t be happy and authentic with a fog of crap blocking our truth up. We have got to face our crap, peeps.
In honour of the Crone Goddess, it’s a great idea to spend some introspective time confronting your fears and investigating what is getting in the way of you being you. Some of it will be easy, some of it will involve some hard core detective work. You can turn your list of fears and limitations into a ritual, burning your fears and proclaiming your freedom from them in a sacred Samhain Fire. Or you could lock yourself in the bath room, allow yourself to feel and experience each of these fears, marking your body with a black mud pack/face paint with each one, and then wash them all off in a cleansing shower afterwards.
Buried under the Crone’s scary confronting exterior is a being of huge, deep, fathomless love. The Crone knows that the easy way doesn’t always create the change we need, and she is not afraid to lead us through the hard and painful way if that is what we need to change and grow.
Cailleach Image by Thalia Took at http://www.thaliatook.com/AMGG/cailleach.php